Endless In Betweens....

You're looping. You somehow find yourself in this endless loop cycle and can't seem to break out of it.  A rut that your wheels just keep spinning in.  When there is something you want so much it hurts to think you won't have it.  So then somehow you find yourself just sitting there thinking and rethinking and over thinking  unsure what your next step should be.  You over analyze and reanalyze and still you don't know what steps to take.  You can speak your mind, but that doesn't mean anything will change.  You could bottle it all up, but then you'll eventually implode from all the pressure building up.

It wasn't something you asked for, but all the same here you are and you can't move on.  So you just keep looping, and find yourself stuck in this empty awkward in between that is completely endless.  You don't see anyway out of it.
Maybe you aren't supposed to be able to get out?  Like a grave you dug yourself you're completely submerged.  Don't get me wrong, it feels good, being sunk this deep.  But it can be lonely, when you're there all alone.  It's one of those things where you can't drag anyone else in unless they are willing to be. But sometimes they put this wall there and you can't pull them over it.
Maybe the only One who can pull you out or others in isn't talking.  So your in this silence and you could scream and maybe He won't even hear.  So you sit in the bottom of this grave, happy....but so so lonely.  You know the words that have been said, and you skew them and replay them and try to understand, but get no where.  So there you sit in this looping cycle with no real directions and have you no idea what to do....