I've been depressed the past couple of days. I've been thrust into a mire of coupled up friends and love. And I'm alone. I know that such things aren't supposed to be something you focus on, but how hard it is not to. It finally hit me tonight that I'm sick of couples. Of being around them, of hearing about them, and just knowing they exist.
I'm sick of happy ever ending weddings, of hearing about my friend boyfriends, of seeing people happily in love. Why?
Because I'm jealous.
I'm straight up, green with envy, sick in my gut jealous. Great way to be right?
1 Corinthians 13 says: love does not envy. But, is that just when you are in love or does it apply to me today?
It applies. It always applies. My heart and life can't be open to love as long as I am looking at others in envy. So each time I look at a couple and get straight up mad jealous, I'm hurting no one but myself. Wow. What a humbling thought.
Hello, I am everyone and anyone who happens upon this blog. I'm the average and the unexpected. I'm someone you relate to and share memories with, I'm all of you and everyone you know. I am me. Unscripted.
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